now…

why now? after many years, after technology has updated our lives, after so much has been achivevd and lost, why do i pick up this blog again? that was the first thing i had to ask myself. i guess i was just bored on a saturday morning, stumbled onto it and got sucked into reading all the posts, and there was one sentense, somewhere in the mist of all, that says: if every beginning has a meaning, then every ending has you. i guess part of me accept the circle of life as a fact, and part of me wishes i could change that. it’s the year 2009, future, home, love, words have different meanings now, i guess if this is a beginning again, with a meaning that makes sense to me, i want to nurture it and give it a chance to grow, and not plot its death already. is this the year to change? can i ever change? who are you still in all my endings, a reference or something real? even i can’t tell anymore.